I'm not one to display personal things to others... Always one to stay true to the word because of my inability to deal with sympathy. But I feel like I have to share my feelings in some public way so sadly you are the ones that get to hear it.
Friday morning I got news that my Grandpa was back in the hospital in the ICU. He's been suffering from many ailments from failing kidneys to needing dialisis to horrible infections. The news that he was back in the hospital was not a good sign. Early Sunday morning we got the news that I deep down knew was coming all weekend long. My grandfatner had 24 to 48 hours left. His blood was too thin and the infection too strong for his frail body.
My grandpa finally passed away early this morning, only a few hours after the final son was able to arrive from Arizona to say his goodbyes. All his children and many of his grandchildren had the opportunity to see him one last time. I was also able to say my goodbye and express my love for him yesterday (where my grandpa then told me I had waited for a good man. So sweet).
It's hard to have motivation to exercise or not eat that bag of chips or piece of candy right now but I'm still managing. I am just grateful to know that my wonderful grandpa is reunited with his eldest son right now and is happy and pain free. I am also grateful for my beliefs and the comfort they bring to me.
Thanks for listening... I'm gonna try my hardest to keep working hard! :)
Katie,
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for your loss. It is never easy to lose a loved one. You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers. Hang in there!
So sorry to hear you lost your grandpa. Very sad, but nice that you were there and got to tell him how much you loved him. Wishing you peace and comfort and lots of good memories.
ReplyDeleteso sorry katie, glad you got to see him and talk to him one last time, hugs!
ReplyDeleteI am grateful for my beliefs too! how could any one deal with death if they didn't think there was something next. It is so hard to say good bye even when you know they are happier! My husbands grandma died last fall she was 97. We were able to say goodbye and give her a kiss just a half hour before she died. It was so peaceful! I often think they need us to give them a hug and a kiss so they know it's ok to let go! thanks for sharing! Death is a part of life! Love to you amd your family!
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